Thursday, July 16, 2009

Through the eyes of others...

Following up my post of a couple of weeks ago, I was amazed how much positive feedback I got and was very happy that my words touched a lot of people. A lot of my feedback comes via FB, so most can't see it on the blog.

You probably know this, but I write because I feel things and it helps me to get them out there. It's a little bit selfish, actually. I certainly don't write for admiration and the fact that anyone, much less lots of people, are touched and helped by my words is very uplifting for me. That being said, I thank you for the feedback because it encourages me to continue as I battle for our family and against my own personal issues every day.

In particular, one of my friends wrote to me with a note about my "Through the eyes of others" post (, even though I don't think I titled it that way, suggesting that I should add another angle to my list... with his permission I am posting the "conversation" here.

I believe that the truth exposed in his words is as powerful as anything I have ever written.
The conversation consists of his initial message to my post, my response and then his very powerful follow up culminating in the truth I am referring to...wait for it, but it's worth it... Peace...and enjoy.
His post:
Bill, Regarding this quote from your blog:"We can try to look at ourselves through the eyes of our parents and our children and hope that we would see a vision of reflection or emulation that brings positive feelings of pride or aspiration and above all Love." This is something I've done a lot lately and it has helped prevent me from going down a dark path. Wise words.

One more thing to add to the list is to look at ourselves in comparison to others whom we admire (maybe you can think of a cool metaphor for that one, like a mirror or something). You are someone whom I admire, and seeing how you care for H (which reminds me of how my dad cared for my mom when she had cancer), and how you are handling the cards you are dealt, is an inspiration to me.
My Response:
Thanks Brother, I guess I look more towards God and try to do what He would expect, vs. comparing myself to others, but there are many good people from which we should not only learn, but also aspire to be more like. With us humans, you have to try to emulate the good and forgive and/or ignore the bad, because inevitably, the bad will be there in some form.
It's why I wish kids would not emulate [the idiot] pro-athletes or put [certain jackass] rock/rap-stars up on pedestals. It accentuates the "need" for money and the free pass to indulgent lifestyle. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for indulging once in a while, but there seems to be an air of entitlement or aspiration to live that lifestyle without regard for more important personal and spiritual matters. ah...just rambling now...take care. Sedg
His Follow up:
Dude,You are so right. I can't say it any better. We have to look to God and can't expect perfection from fellow humans. But it is inspiring when humans do extraordinary things. That encourages us to believe that we can do it too. Which is why it's important for us to reflect God to those who are looking at us (which is my paraphrase of what I think you were saying in your blog, and which is what I think you are doing for the many people who admire you).

Some say that Jesus set the example of how we can reflect God's love. That we can endure the suffering that is required to love others. That's something many people don't get.. that love requires effort and suffering. But the effort is worth it - it is repayed with joy. Maybe it's similar to anything else we suffer to achieve, such as training for a race or studying for a test or whatever. Sometimes it's obvious (the connection from suffering to joy), and sometimes it's a mystery that requires faith. I think I'm saying this to encourage myself, because right now I'm hurting a lot. It's so hard to let go... And I hope in some small way it helps you too, because I know your suffering is immense. And I believe your joy will be INCREDIBLE!

When I explained to a friend how hard it would be to let go of the relationship - that it would be tremendous pain to me - he said "what will it cost you to suffer that in order to protect all that is dear to you [my family]. Jesus suffered for you partly to show you that you can do it too". That blew me away. I never thought of the crucifixion that way before.

Looking forward to telling stories over beers some day! Sending my love and admiration to you, H and your three beautiful girls. You all are inspiration to me.

Ah...incredible. Let me say it again..."Jesus suffered partly to show you that you can do it too."
I breathe that in a hundred times every day, sometimes consciously and sometimes sub-consciously. I think about the others that might know it and therefore persevere through whatever they might be going through and hope that they do...or will.


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